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I love the welcoming feeling of the New Year. I love looking back on the year and thinking about what is to come, but most of all, how I can make the next year better. How I can make myself better. It's incredible how things can change your whole perspective of things. For the past ten years I have been working with someone who I once really admired, but five years ago our relationship went toxic. A few things happened and we were both caught up in this negativity and nastiness which just wouldn't go away. I am not amazed by the change in the other person. I was amazed at the change in me. I doubted my ability to do my job. I was anxious to go to work in the morning. I was nervous about making decisions and taking on roles that put me in the spotlight at all. It ate me from the inside out. It changed my positive attitude and I started to think negatively about things. Well, this toxic person has just transferred to another workplace and it is over 14 hours away and I am beyond relieved. I think it is going to be the best year for me (and the others she chose to bully).

Health wise, i finished this year the same weight as last year and the year before that! Yep! I haven't moved form the 50kg loss mark for three years!!! I'm thinking  that my body kind of likes this Size 14 thing! But, I really want to tone up now. I would like to have some body confidence so that I can rock the 14, but I still only feel comfortable in big, baggy Size 18s.


Happy New Year lovers!

9 days util New Zealand!!!

FFF xoxo