#fatfreefloozy

Sometimes, we get into habits that are hard to break. After having my little band for 5 years now, that is exactly what I have done. I've got into some bad habits and have forgotten the rules that lead me to success in the first place. I am on Day 3 of tracking now. It hasn't yet shown on the scales, but I am on holidays and my steps tend to halve when I am not running around at work all day!! So, I'm not too worried about that. Anyhow; I need to refocus slowly on turning the "rules" into habits. So, let's look at the first rule: EAT THREE MAIN MEALS A DAY AND TWO PLANNED SNACKS * This seems so easy, but as I was getting closer to goal, it was so easy to just start snacking on little things throughout the day. Things that I saw on the table. Snacks that I grabbed on the run. Planned snacks are very different. They are calculated and not impulsively smooshed down my gob. The other really important thing is to wait for hunger signals. I don't have to eat...

So, I did some flab searching today (which is like soul searching, but related directly to my diet) and decided to eat whatever I wanted today. I felt like a white hot chocolate and I had one, I felt like cruskits with vegemite for breakfast, so I had it and the most incredible thing happened. I haven't eaten dinner yet and I am already over twice the average calories of a normal maintenance allowance for a woman!!! That is how much I underestimate the calories in those little things I add onto a moderately healthy diet every day. I mean, my general day goes like this: Breakfast  - I cook the hubby something delish and then have a couple of bites. 10am - I am hungry and have a protein bar/yoghurt/sakatas Lunch - Can of tuna and some cruskits or leftovers (sugar free soup/curry/casserole) - about a cup Afternoon - Some form of hot drink/latte/flat white and some cheese/nuts/biscuits (sugar free) Dinner - A recipe from the sugar free cookbook Supper - Cup of tea Now, that is...

I really truly hope that you are not following me to get skinny motivation hey? Or maybe you are. Maybe I am awesome motivation for what not to do. I'm kind of lost. As I laid today getting my biannual (well, it's been four years since the last one) girlscrape, I was telling the lady with her hands up my va jay jay that I'd lost 50 kilos and kept it off for three years. Yep. Three years. I've been within this five kilos for three years and do you know what? I'm kind of happy about that. If you asked me twenty years ago if you could make me 85 kilos but I would stay there for three years, I would have said "yes, please", but at the moment it feels "unfinished" for want of a better word. I'm stuck not knowing what to do and whether I actually have the strength to see it through anyhow. There are things that have worked for me in the past, but only in the moment. Not sustainable. And 20 kilos from the "end" of my journey, I really want...

I AM going to lose sixty kilos in total before I am 40!!! Yep. That is the goal I have set myself. So, fourteen kilos in 8 months! TOTALLY DOABLE! Bring it on! How?? I am quitting sugar. I am working out half an hour every day minimum. No exceptions. I am going to start drinking that evil clear liquid of the Gods (eek!) And I'll visit here a little more often. Let's go skinny biatches!

Seriously, is there anything better than discovering a new recipe? The granola in the I Quit Sugar program is to die for. It's something that I'll keep in my breakfast list forever. It is pretty much coconut flakes, mixed nuts, chia seeds, spices and rice malt syrup toasted in the oven in some coconut oil, but team it with a good quality full fat yoghurt and you pretty much have the dieting girl's fix for ice-cream. Delish!

It's been awhile. I guess no posting is a sign that things have been going well in real life right? And, that's just about right. I have just got back from Sydney and had a lovely time with my two besties. I ate like a mofo and expected a whole heap of damage, but I guess all that walking around kept me in check, because the scale hasn't moved. Actually, I think my body likes being this weight. My weight has moved between the same five kilos for about two years now, and that's ok with me, because it's still 50 kilos lighter than I was five years ago. I feel healthier and happier than ever. Having said that though, my best friend and I have signed up to do the 8 week I quit sugar program with Sarah Wilson. It started four weeks ago, but we both decided that starting it and then, going to Sydney for a week, would be really silly, so we are starting it together next week. I also rejoined my local YMCA. I got a 12 month membership including all classes, gym use and pool...

Yum! Breakfast smoothie to wash down my 83.1kg weigh-in. Have undone some of the Easter damage! Woohoo! Coconutty berry smoothie 4 strawberries 20 frozen blueberries 180mls coconut milk 1 tspn raw cocao 1 tspn rice malt syrup Blend. Drink. Pic to the left!! Hugs, #fff xoxo